:'(

I really need you.

Random.

Alright, so I went to my aunt's house yesterday & I has so much fun playing with my nephew! :D He's damn freaking cute, love him lots. My cousin & I were practically playing with him the whole time till we left my aunt's house laa! CAUSE WE WERE SO BORED, that my nephew was the only source of our entertainment. HAHA! Met Joshua after that, & of course I'm happy (: Talked & fooled around, then we headed home around 10plus, 11. OH! & Chingay on Sat was damn fun cause we had Post-Parade (: Danced till I perspire so much laa, but still fun!

Today's school was rather slack for me. I was messaging throughout Lit class cause Mrs Loh is still on MC. Mr Chong didn't come, so I slept throughout Physics. Had Amaths break then slacked in Chinese class again. So pratically, I did nothing for school today other than slacking? Lol. There's PE tomorrow, & we're doing F&C. I think I'll just die laa =.-

& I've been feeling kinda emo these days, don't ask me why. I just feel this way.

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Pictures! :D




Janice; Jingting; Deeban, with me (:


Geraleine, HweiShyan & I :D



Nephew, Zachary! Adorable man :DDDDD


& me, who loves to camwhore (:

:DDDDDDDD

That look in your eyes,

why does it seem so.. I don't know how to say but,

your cuteness just makes me melt.

I love you so (:

本来不觉得你特别疼我,
直到你放弃爱我以后, 来不及了..
对不起长大太慢, 害你遗失了我,
抱歉, 让你白费了这么多..

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Everything is too late but Baby,
I can't help it but to think of you everynight..
I miss every little thing of you.
I don't wanna act happy anymore cause I'm not.
So tired of putting up a brave front.
I still do wish that you'll come back,
but I'll tell myself everyday that that's not gonna happen.
No matter what, it won't.
The fact is you're gone & never coming back.
Sigh..

I'll forget you someday, I hope..

CNY is boring.

So I spend my CNY slacking around Bishan today. How uncool is that, can someone please tell me? =.- Met Jingting, & we ate at Subway for dinner (: So yummy, hoho! Yuzhong came for awhile but left for Brent's house. Met up with Michelle awhile before she went clubbing, then Teri, Glenn & Nicholas came to find us. To entertain the bored us, LOL! Chit chat & joked around till 1.20am, Teri & Jingting sent me home. Yea, so that's my day :D I'm gonna pig in tomorrow.. Goodnight dear folks! TOODLES~

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Pictures!


Subway (:




At the bus stop (:
Can't help it, we love camwhoring! HAHA.


Cool, my hands can produce light :DDD

RWAR!

Alright, met Janice & Yap yap just now. Chit chat awhile then came home around 1am like that. So yep! I'm super sleepy now, & I'm gonna turn in for the night/morning soon. Goodnight/morning people! :D

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Alright, so I'm back from visiting already. Visited both Mommy's & Daddy's relatives. Which means on the 2nd & 3rd of CNY I'm free, & it also means I would be bored at home unless someone asks me out. I camwhored A LOT today, HAHA! So fun can :DDD Got lotsa red packets today, hope to get more then I'll be rich! HOHO. & I don't know what to have for dinner later =.- Even eating a meal is sucha chore, lol.

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Pictures! :D

Daddy, Sister & Brother ; Me :D

This is what we wore!!

Mommy & I, loves :DDD

Love you Jiejie (: ;

Blow kisses! Haha ;

Once a retard, forever a retard :P

I love his hair man, soft & brown ;

You're a fucktard, haha! Kidding :P ;

Didi & I (:, love my brother lots!

Her name is Baby (: ;

She's damn cute laa! How I wish she's mine!

Sister & brother, haha!

In my aunt's car. ;

Oh-so-skinny face, learn from Miss Wong Chingting! Haha. ;

Retarded :P ; Twist twist. ; In the taxi (: ;

Smiles with teeth. ; This was yesterday night's.

& I LOVE TO CAMWHORE :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Happy New Year everybody! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE :DDDDD

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So I had reunion dinner today & I was freaking full =.- Cause Kay & I went out to eat at like 3plus, 4. I ate fried banana, drank bubble tea plus a burger from 7-11. & I had dinner at 6plus. I was like so freaking full, that I'm so sure I could roll on the floor like a ball! HAHA :P

Headed back to Bishan, met up with Huiyee & Kay. Wanted to go Party World but it's close :( So sad laa, cannot sing! Played at arcade for awhile then slacked at Guangyang playground there. After that accompanied Huiyee to wait for Yen under my block, then Kay & I slacked at surf till 11.30pm before coming home.

Today is CNY already, so happy nehxz cause got a lot of red packets to take! I'm gonna be rich man, HOHOHO :D Alright, goodnight people! <3

Why..

Why does it seems that my heart keeps breaking over & over again? Sigh.

YAHOOOO..!!

Went for school today cause I decided to be a good girl (: Our class won 2nd for the banner competition, haha. Screamed like a mad woman when Amos went up to take the prize :P After school ended, bathed & everything before meeting up with Jingting & Kay. Headed down to town to find Huiyee, hehe.

I left around 6pm cause I had reunion dinner with my Mommy, Stepdad, Sister, Brother & his friend. Ate & walked around after dinner (: Met Kay, Jingting & Huiyee. Slacked for a little while then home sweet home :D Yea, that's my day. & I'm so freaking tired now! Gonna sleep soon, goodnight dear readers <3

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Pictures! :D

Our class banner, plus Joceline, Jacq & I :DDD

Marcus's idiotic face! HAHA :P

Kay Lim, Wong Chingting & Eng Yuting <3

Oops, cut off Kay's face =/

Downstairs my house, hehe (:

My sweetie & I :D

Retards, hahaha!

Aww.. Don't you feel love? Lol.

Small eyes V.S Big eyes.

& Miss Wong Chingting is damn cute laa! :P

:D

Yesterday was Valentine's Day. I'm overjoyed cause I received many many presents, but at the same time I'm gonna grow fat cause there's so much sweets & chocolates. HAHA! Thanks for all the presents people, love you all man :D & I'm glad things between Janice & I are okay now. Feel so(992938010218) much better can?! Love you darling, promise I'll listen to you in future okay? Won't ever disappoint you again <3

After school slacked around Bishan with Jingting & Kay. Huiyee came to meet us after her work. Jingting & I sent Huiyee home, after that we walked all the way back to my block to chit chat a little. So she went home around 11.20pm. & I'm going to school tomorrow laa, what a miracle for Yuting. LOL! Alright, goodnight folks (:

RAHH..

FUCKING HURT..

& guess what people, I'm a fucking loner. HAHA!
I seriously hate my life now,
it totally sucks.
Any ways to end it faster? LOL!

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Hey people! I'll be blogging at my xanga now too :D

Oh well..

So apparently, I'm back home cause I went to school this morning & only to find out that all my subject teachers are not in school! Wth can =.- So I decided to come home. Probably studying a little later as I've promised Mommy to.

Met up with Abi & Aaron yesterday. They were so nice to accompany me for dinner (: Yes, I'm a lonely kid after all the things that have happened. Maybe those people are happy to see me in sucha pathetic state too, but I deserve this? Haha. We ate our dinner, chit chat, slacked at playground then both of them sent me home! Thank God I still have friends like them, & I had a good laugh with them too :D

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So anyways, I think that everyone deserves a second chance & it's not as if I'm perfect & I don't make mistakes. Like hello, I'm asking you two for forgiveness cause I know my mistake but not for the sake of being forgiven. Ohmytian can?! Everytime I ask, you guys give me attitude. Thanks huh, I so needed that. Imagine you guys were me, how would you feel if I treated you all like that? Yes, I know I disappointed you two first! But can't I just have a second chance? That's all I'm asking for. I've done what I could do, whether to forgive me is really up to you two already. I'm tired of getting those fucked up attitude from you guys, seriously tired.

DAMN.

FUCK YOU!
How I wish I could just get you out of my mind.
Eng Yuting, wtf are you thinking man?

I hate my fucking life.

& thanks for not replying my message when you're like actually outside yesterday. Thanks huh? _l_

Lost Without You-Delta Goodrem

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How AM I ( not my ) going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How AM I (not my ) ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

ROAR!

I need Joshua, I need him badly. Why did fate brought us together, yet this is happening to us? Nothing is going right. He may be fine, but I'm seriously not. NOT A SINGLE BIT! I feel so much like sleeping & never wake up. How I wish I could choose not to accept this fact. But hello Eng Yuting, it's useless. WAKE UP!

FUCK ALL THESE SHIT, & YOU'RE NO LONGER MINE! FUCK.

Over.

We broke up, don't ask me why.
It's just over, okay?

Anyways, Joshua thanks for everything yea? (:

:DDDDDDDDD

Happy Six Months, My Baby Boy! (:

Thanks for all the love you've given me,
& the patience you had towards all my nonsense.
I've never thought that we could come this far.
Since it has already happened,
let's try to make this love last forever.
I love you deep deep down in my heart :D

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Sometimes I really wonder, am I worth your love?